Two View Points
My heart dropped as my fears were confirmed
I was pregnant; for this I had not yearned
Where do I go?
To whom can I turn?
Hi there, Mommy
It’s little me
I’m your baby
Can’t you see?
I felt the tears running out of my eyes
Oh how I wish that this was a lie
Slowly I stood up and headed out
I needed to call him, there was no doubt
Hi, again, Mommy! Guess how old I am now?
You can now detect my brain waves, I don’t know how
But that means that I am 6 weeks!
I can move my hands, and soon my feet
He wants me to keep this thing
How can he not understand its sting?
Tomorrow I scheduled a consultation
After all this, I’ll deserve a vacation
Today I think I am feeling sad
Did I hear you say that I made you mad?
I’m sorry, Mommy, I didn’t mean to
I love you don’t you know that’s true?
Stupid doctor, says he wants me to wait
If I wait much more, it will be too late
I’ll try a different place
One that doesn’t cover the chairs in lace
I’m feeling really scared
Today I think that nobody has ever cared
Mommy, I’m here for you every day
Please, please don’t throw me away
Today I got the police to keep him away from me
He still wants the child, why can’t he see?
It isn’t a child yet!
Why can’t he just forgive and forget?
My little heart beats fast in fear
I do not like the things I can hear
Mommy, won’t you just listen to me?
I’m a little baby, can’t you see?
I can’t believe these people
Acting as though this sidewalk is a church with a steeple
Do they think they will change my mind?
That will never happen, they are in the blind
Today my fingernails started to show
Though, my hair has yet to grow
Oh, mother, can you hear them pray?
Will you not listen to what they say?
I can’t wait to get home in a few hours
To relax, maybe I’ll take a shower
Whatever I decide to do
I’ll be free from this curse
That’s so very true
Mommy! Make this stop
I’m really scared now
This thing is trying to kill me, somehow
I can’t keep swimming away
I want to be in your life to stay!
Oh, why am I in such pain?
But I guess there’s no pain, no gain
Soon it will be over for me
I’ll be able to go home, free
I can’t hold on any longer
I’m sorry that I am not stronger
Mommy, before I die
I just want to tell you goodbye…
Nightmares, why do you plague me so?
I didn’t do anything wrong, don’t you know?!
I need to be able to get my sleep
So shut up, don’t make another peep
Mommy, I’ll never stop loving you
I’m safe now, though once torn, its true
I don’t blame you for anything
I’m forgiving you for everything
When I first woke up, I was crying
I was so scared, after dying
Then an angel comforted me
I’m your special guardian now, if you ever need me
By Kateri Athanasius
(Read more from Kateri Athanasius at Heroic Catholic)